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[11 Oct 2004|06:46pm] |
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now it's my turn to do this.
you know what to do.
i want everyone to participate.
even if i don't know you that well // only know you through livejournal.
leave me a comment with your name,
and i'll tell you exactly what i think of you
with all honesty.
i promise.
so.. do it.
(and yes, i am in fact wearing a UCLA shirt. get over it.)
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| a public entry because.. well, i told you it was coming. |
[30 Sep 2004|06:22pm] |
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FRIENDS CUT!
the people listed are being cut from my journal for the following reasons:
1) i don't think you read my journal. as in, you don't comment. ever.
2) your journal isn't interesting // you don't update.
3) you made a new livejournal and i'm cutting your old one..?
4) i just don't like you. HA.
now! if you think this was a mistake, and you would like to be re-added, comment below. otherwise whatever. and if i just recently added you & forgot & deleted you, i apologize. comment here and i'll re-add you. i promise. i just can't keep track of the recent additions. my short term memory is terrible.
( did you make the cut?! )
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[03 Aug 2004|11:45am] |
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i've just spent the past hour editing all of my entries.
lately i've been changing. therefore, so is my journal.
my journal is now friends only. you know how it goes.
entries will be public every now and then.
comment to be added, stay added, etc.
i'll most likely add you back.
(although i would prefer if you actually knew me)
and please don't promote your communities here.
i don't have time for them anyways.
thanks.
much love, kristen.
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[01 Aug 2004|04:15pm] |
i'm waiting for my brownies to finish baking, so i thought i'd update because i've been thinking a lot lately, and i thought i'd share. now i'm not going to allow any comments on this entry because i don't want people leaving me their advice, etc. i just want to explain why i've been "different" recently to those who have noticed and explain what's going on in my crazy kristen mind right now. so here i go.
i know you're not going to read all of this. i don't care.
i've always been one of those people who can't seem to live in the moment. i'm always one step ahead of my peers and of myself. a little over a week ago i experienced an extremely hard night. for those of you who know, good for you. for those of you who don't, shit happens and i guess it happens for a reason. now, although then i actually thought i was going to die, i'm very much alive right now and realize how completely and utterly bored i am with this chapter in my life, and i realize that i have been for quite some while. the only problem is i don't know how to move on from it. i'm craving to get away, but there is no possible way to do so. so for the last few nights instead of going out like i normally do i've been sitting in my room reading and thinking and reminiscing about the past. many lightbulbs have been turned on. i not only think i deserve better than what i'm giving myself lately, but i absolutely know i do. i have slowly, little by little, been compromising my values and standards that i set forever ago (not to say that i'm remotely a bad girl). but not anymore. it's just not satisfying by any means. and i know this is going to change so much with so many different people who only know me as one way. but i'm not going to give in anymore. i have completely outgrown this phase. i'm done with it, i'm tired of it, i'm disgusted with it. it bores me. i actually need substance. and i feel like i need to put this into writing for everyone to read and see and understand, and also to keep myself in check. i'm not an airhead. i'm not a "party girl". i'm not remotely superficial. i'm not always peppy and nice. i'm very intelligent. i enjoy learning new things, i'm very curious. i love intellect and argument. i would rather spend an evening with one person who i truly care about than go out with a ton of attractive strangers. sometimes i'm a bitch, i'm human. and i have morals and standards -- those of you who really know me probably already knew this, but now i want everyone to. gavin, today, helped me realize that it's okay to want more and to be unsatisfied with the moment. and i thank him. i guess craving change helps us understand who we are and move forward into becoming better people. and i want to be a better person. i'm starting a new chapter in my life.
so hello, i'm kristen. this is page one.
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